2003-05-19 / 3:43 p.m.

(you got yourself in a whirl...)

i'm in love with Beck...but he's got something going on with my cousin who's got some problem with her husband which has got me in a whirl.

And i'm washing dishes like mad, trying to be a good sport, trying to catch his eye, trying to be the good girl.

And all the while I'm fuming in a bitter, brokenhearted sort of way that finally leaves me reeling.

And I'm off to the department store, topless, to search for a new cover-up.

I hate days like that.

last night ... tonight